Meditations on Loss

I.

Even yesterday your eyes gripped the road
Dirty liquid of a diverse passion that was transmuted in your blood
But today the roads are gone
They are there but they have flown
Time has left you.

The wind turns and all the doors are locked
Time has left you taken its leaves and carried on
The merry zoo the circus
You wave at it but it doesn’t recognize you you’re no longer its audience
Time has left you.

What is there to do now?
Become an empty door
Who is there to call on?
Time has left you
Become an empty door.

II.

There is a wind that blows dry leaves
And sounds like woman’s laughter
I reached out for a woman
When I found her I lost her.

Never reach out for a woman
Though she may laugh
There is no woman.

Only in mirrors life burns
And burning passes into Burning
Comes again comes larger.

So the earth renews itself
And so forever we reach
Finding we lose
Using we’re used.

III.

Solitary wing,
Flitting at the pause of a comma you are gone
Wing of feldspar wing of jasper
How you turned transparent and disappeared
And my hand turned ghostly behind you
Once the moon rose low in my dream
And I saw its jade branches grow terribly vivid
And then it was gone
Into what space? Through what hole in time?
And space is space, water is water
Renunciation restores to form its form.

IV.

What is there to a dice that it may roll and make the heart ache
Once I knew your ways dice and I played you
And once I thought I knew your ways but I did not know
Blind heads beat against stone walls
Cats’ eyes are alert in the dark
Where the ivy thickens the serpent waits
And once you said you will roll for me and I stopped playing
In this room which is so many rooms I have lost my hands my feet
But you have left my eyes dice one still one rolling.

Three Metaphysical Poems

I. Alchemist

The reluctances of earth tighten and painful longing backward pressed
Breaks to the acts of hint and secret gesture:
The air thickens with ambiguity.
You would be dove or star
Come fluttering down to rest on the mariner’s breast:
I call you evening. To you I bring the herbs
Of lunar healing on my brow.

But earth burdens us with its belongings
Spies and secret assassins riddle the seams
Dark forgetting in our night are birds of prey,
The brighter flash in your shining
A hint of the piranha’s teeth – we dare not touch.

So, carefully, we refine the shining metal.
So the world rises precariously.
To you I grant the ancient measure of love –
It may be true it may not be true.

II. An Old Bird to his Mistress

The fruit is on the bough, the motley jackdaw
Proposes communal felicity; you are young
And youth in ignorance has its brazen virtue
Not unattractive in itself. The fire gnaws
Within your heart and throws up blazing colors –
Mating colors only?

The comb of many winters on my brow
Is but a battered crown. I have lost speech:
My head in palsy only knows to shake
Spasmodic negations. Winter’s freezing lips
Have turned in me to heaven’s ministers
The stars can hurt with truth; the fruity bough
Is sardonic at its center. You too will feel
The snow of alienation on your wings.

III. Sky Dower

Rummaging through the recesses of the heart I saw
Sky-dower in a corner deep-concealed
An ancient parchment mitigating the law
That the aeons hid in their bosom, became revealed.

I woke and to meet my Lord once more I rushed
The stars perturbed me not; in a white crypt
Where the Bride on the Bridegroom’s breast lies forever crushed
I found him: there we shared the honey-script.

The word that is the body of the Bride
Was hung like a golden sun in an inner sky
Invisibly here all things were grouped and tied
Kneaded together and fused into a cry

That thrilled, rapt, upwards – a torch of bliss
Yearning in a million tongues to the Bridegroom’s kiss.

Two Poems on Durga

1. Mahishasuramardini, Mamallapuram

Behold the princess on her lion-mount
Slender like a lotus-stalk her arching torso,
Like its bud her jewelled head. In the hurtling rush
And tangled confusion of battling bodies, clear
She stands, still in swiftest motion, her arms
Taking deadly aim: Partnering her
Expertly in the dizzying moves of the dance
The buffallo-masked club-bearing self-made man,
Libido scaling Goddess heights: She will
Impale intent with arrow between the eyes,
Decapitate with sword and plunge her trident
Deep in the triple folds of writhing darkness,
Lion claws tear out the demon heart.
Thus undisguised, undone, dismembered, dying
He will glimpse the flashing worlds like beads for her neck,
Bear the unthinkable grace of her extreme attraction.

2. Durga at the Rameshwara Cave, Ellora

It is the hour preceeding Victory, she is poised
Her world-shaking force restrained, her lion dismissed,
Her blur of multiple hands reduced to four,
Her calm beatific face identified
With her blissful trance-drunk Lord, the buffallo readied,
One foot forcing it down, a hand drawing back
Firmly the agonized neck, the sword hand lifted.
This moment of perfect dominance she savors
For eternity. Then in a flash like lightning
The neck will snap, there will be dying spasms,
A fountain of poison blood from severed head
And thunder drums of Victory and showering of flowers
And drenching rain of Grace: Gods, sages, humans
Will prostrate themselves and feel Her live in them.

Introductory Notes on “Hinduism”

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Introductory Notes to "Hinduism"

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INTRODUCTORY NOTES TO "HINDUISM"
(ASTIKA SYSTEMS AND PRACTICES OF INDIA)

By Debashish Banerji

Astika Systems: Those which accept the primacy of the Vedas.

Productive Dualities within Hinduism:-

Ideology/Creative Agent -Ideology: is the institutionalized aspect of Hinduism made up of canonical and exegetical texts (sastras), an archive of established practices (puja, niyama) and custodians of canonicals texts and practices, such as priests (brahmins) or social authorities (kula-patis, etc.)
Creative Agent: those who realize identity with a higher principle of consciousness (yogi, rishi, guru) and can teach the way to it through personal authority (diksha), a personal system of practice (sadhana) and/or direct transmission of experience (darshan). The institutional or ideological system is open to revision by such agents through debate (vitarka), followers capable of reproducing the realization in their lives (sishya, sangha) and direct transmission of experience (darshan) demonstrating its validity.

- Animism/Spirituality - Animism: mastery or control of spirits behind material world through ritual, magic, propitiation, shamanic skills, yoga – sense of predictable results (see discussion on yakshas/yakshis below).
Spirituality: Belief in a transcendental God or Spirit – non-propitiatory access to the Source undertaken for experience of relationship or oneness – results: non-theistic - preditable results through yoga; theistic: dependent on Grace and not predictable.

- Will to Liberation (Transcendence)/Will to Mastery and Enjoyment -  Will to Liberation: Sense of material existence as an imprisonment and need to escape from it – world-negating, ascetic, seeking cessation of reincarnation, experience of transcendental spirit/consciousness, non-dual, yoga as meditation, Vedanta, Mayavada, mukti (freedom), aniconic.
Will to Mastery and Enjoyment: Sense of material existence as a challenge and opportunity and need to control and enjoy it – world-affirming, magic, ritualistic, yoga as practices of mastery, bhukti (enjoyment), Tantric, iconic.

- Aniconism/Iconism - Aniconism: All religions have some degree of aniconism built into them, though they may be due to different reasons – eg. A major reason for aniconism in Islam is because only God has the right to represent living things. Human representations of living things is an insult to God. In Buddhism, the basis of aniconism is the doctrine of nirvana and sunyata – i.e. the non-substantiality of the phenomenal world. In Hinduism it arises from the un-worldliness (alien-ness) of the Divine and the illimitability of Brahman. The will to liberation tends towards formulations which emphasize the experience of illimitability and hence tend towards aniconism.
Iconism: Hinduism believes in the immanence of God in all things – i.e. all phenomenal objects are names and faces of the Brahman. Hence all phenomenal objects can be used to iconically represent the Divine. However the human body given multiple parts has been conceived as adequate to the representation of the gods as cosmic figures of Brahman. This is known by art historians as “the
multiplicity convention” (Doris Srinivasan). The will to mastery and enjoyment tends towards relationship with objective representations of the Divine and hence tends towards iconism.

- Shiva/Shakti – Soul or Consciousness and Nature or manifesting power – explained below.

Textual History of Hinduism:

1. Yaksha/Yakshi cults – of uncertain chronology – considered animistic propitiation deities. Large icons in the Mauryan period (3rd c. BCE) – dangerous but pleased by specific offerings and made to give gifts.

2. The Vedas (c. 1500 BCE ?) – nature gods, ritualistic, introduces the caste system as the stratification of society (eventually hierarchical and hereditary) into priests (brahmans), warriors, rulers and administrators (kshatriyas), traders, merchants and artisans (vaishyas) and laborers (sudras). Outside of the system are the unclean or untouchables (achyutas) and foreigners or outcastes (mlecchas). The Vedas represent a yogic path (Sri Aurobindo) in symbolic forms which traslate socially into propitiation rituals for material enjoyments conducted by the brahmans (priests) for the kshatriyas (royalty). Hence, prioritizes the will to enjoyment. However, there is no evidence of Vedic iconism – Doris Srinivasan characterizes this by the phrase “ritual as icon”.

3. The Upanishads (8th – 6th c. BCE ?) – aphoristic and paradoxical verses prioritizing the will to liberation – seen as a reaction to the ritualism of the Vedas though it aligns itself to the Vedas by claiming to reinterpret them in a non-ritualistic way: (a) The formless and illimitable Brahman is posited as superior to the Vedic gods, the Vedic gods being seen as representations of Brahman. (b) Access to God no longer the prerogative of brahmans but of all people and no longer through ritual but through psychological processes of meditation and yoga (way of experiencing identity with Brahman) – tending towards asceticism, worldnegation and aniconism. Buddhism and Jainism can be seen as philosophies that share the discourse of the Upanishads though by rejecting the primacy of the Vedas they exclude themselves from the “Hindu” tradition. (c) Social ideologemes put in place at this time: samsara (society)/sannyasa (renunciation) relationship highlighted due to ascetic tendency of the Upanishads, karma and rebirth cycle (dharma-karma-punarjanma).

4. The Puranas (1st – 4th c. CE upto the 10th c) – based on the cosmic gods Shiva, Vishnu and Brahma and the many manifestation of the Goddess Devi or Shakti. These are possibly independent cults but aligned to the Hindu formation through the Puranic writings. Devi texts are called the Tantras or Shakti Tantras. Puranas and Tantras combine the will to liberation with the will to mastery and enjoyment – iconic and non-iconic forms of these Gods/Goddesses co-exist. Puranas cluster themselves around the three major deities – thus there are Brahma Puranas, Vishnu Puranas and Shiva Puranas. Each set looks upon the deity at its center as the Supreme God and the others as subsidiary to him, often his devotees. There are no major cults pertaining to Brahma (perhaps because the creation is perceived as “faulty”) and Hindus are broadly classed as Shaivas, Vaishnavs and Shaktas. The sects have a degree of rivalry among them, though the idea of “adhikara” or spiritual capacity and swadharma or soul-preference contribute to a greater degree of tolerance along with the Puranic notion that the gods work in harmony with each other.

Major Puranic Gods and Goddesses:

Trimurti: Puranic trinity integrating the three major deities into a cosmic ecosystem. Here, Brahma is the Creator, Vishnu the Preserver and Shiva the Destroyer.

Vahana: The gods and goddesses of the Puranas ride animal mounts termed vahanas. These may be derived from dwarf mounts associated with the yakshis.

Shiva: Destroys bondages towards liberation – this portrays the will to liberation and co-exists in a dialectic (duality) with Devi seen as the giver of mastery and enjoyment. He represents transcendence and is thus characterized by opposites – the ascetic and the lover, the formless and the formed, the preserver and the destroyer. Aniconically he is portrayed as the erect phallus (linga) always in association with the vulva (yoni) which represents the Devi. The linga/yoni combination represents the cosmic creation act at the center of the universe constantly giving it birth. By and large Hindus do not look upon this as having any relationship with the human sex act, the sex of the cosmic gods being seen as incomprehensible to humans except through spiritual experience. Iconically, Shiva is seen with four-hands riding the bull (named Nandi) as his vahana. He often has a trident (trishula), a snake (naga), a begging bowl and an antelope (kuranga). Forms of the Devi associated with Shiva are Shakti, Parvati, Durga and Kali.


Vishnu: Preserves “dharma” (righteousness, truth or divine order/harmony) in the universe – hence “incarnates” whenever there is a danger of chaos and falsehood overpowering the earth. Vishnu’s incarnations (avataras) have an evolutionary component and represent his critical appearance at each transition to a higher order of complexity and consciousness in the universe. In the canonical version the incarnations are – Matsya (fish), Kurma (tortoise), Varaha (boar), Narasimha (man-lion composite), Vamana (dwarf), Parasurama (vitalistic man with an axe), Rama (ethical man, ideal king), Krishna (overman with superhuman powers and a supreme lover), Buddha (appropriation from Buddhism) and Kalki (avatara of the future – represented as a sword-bearing horseman – will come to bring a reign of Truth on earth). Each avatara is associated with a destructive crisis on earth (pralaya) which spells the end of an age (yuga). The universe is seen as cycling through different ages (kalpas and yugas) and being reborn after destruction. Vishnu is represented aniconically through an ammonite fossil called shalagram. Vishnu’s vahana is the eagle-like bird Garuda and his bed, when he has his cosmic rest is the snake with infinite coils, Ananta. Vishnu’s Devi counterparts (consorts) are Lakshmi and Saraswati. Iconically, Vishnu is represented with four hands, usually holding a conch, a disc-weapon, a mace and a lotus.

Devi: The Goddess as extolled in the Tantras is fierce and represents passionate power which goes to war when even the gods fail. She is also benign and a granter of boons when united with her Lord. Representing the will to mastery and enjoyment, Goddess cults are invested in ritual, magical and yogic practices which open up special supernatural powers (siddhis).

Ganesha: Deity with an elephant head and human body who is said to have been created by Parvati out of her own body dirt and given life to by Vishnu. There are different myths on how he lost his head and had it replaced by an elephant head. He is a “liminal god” – ie. one who stands at the threshold between the world of humans and gods. He is the first god to be worshipped in any puja and at any temple.

Hindu Practice:The dialectic between the will to liberation and the will to mastery and enjoyment is active within the forms of Hindu worship. Devotion to the cosmic gods (bhakti) lies at its foundation. Worship (puja) may be conducted at home shrines, in temples, during special times or in the mind (dhyana, meditation or japa, chanting). Lay people seek to worship so as to be granted material boons, but this is seen metaphorically as “asking one’s father and mother for what one wants.” Thus, if denied, one understands “it is for my good”, leading to transcendence. Yogis worship for special powers (siddhis) or for liberation (mukti). In all cases, the devotional relationship with the deity also carries a component of mutuality. The experience of this mutuality during worship is called darshan, a nondual experience of seeing and being seen when the experiencer disappears in or becomes one with, the Deity. Pujas, if external rituals, are conducted by brahmans for sponsors (yajamana) using offerings of food, flowers, clothes, ornaments, mantras and entertainment. The iconic/aniconic dialectic is present in pujas which are conducted both to the iconic form of the deity and an abstract pot (ghata puja) representing the incomprehensible “vessel” (adhara) which contains Divine Consciousness. Clockwise circumambulation (pradakshina) around the temple and the shrine forms a part of the worship.

The Hindu Temple: At the center of the Hindu temple is the shrine with an aniconic or “unbeautiful” representation of the deity, pointing to its illimitability or alterity. In the case of Shiva, this is the linga/yoni combination representing the cosmic act of creation. In the case of Vishnu, it is an ammonite fossil called shalagram representing the earliest form of awakened consciousness on earth. In the case of Devi, it is often a Tantric diagram (yantra) or semi-formed representation with a “relic” associated with it. The temple itself is conceived as the home of the God, seen as a cosmic mountain, Mount Meru or Shiva’s Himalayan home-peak, Kailash. It also has associated with it smaller or subsidiary peaks or smaller shrines to other gods, reflecting the Puranic idea of the realm of gods as a family with the central deity at its head. There is little evidence of stand-alone temples prior to the 5th c. They may have been made of materials which have perished (wood, bricks) or worship may have been temporary or aniconic. Regarding worship of the Vedic gods, Doris Srinivasan has suggested that the ritual itself was the icon. The earliest examples of remaining temples are of the cave variety. Perhaps this has something to do with replicating the environment of Buddhist cave viharas and chaityas and/or the metaphor of the cave as a “womb” of the earth. The “womb” metaphor is transposed in the stand-alone temple in the name of the sanctum, garbha-griha (womb-chamber). This is the center of the temple, a small room with limited access where the performers of ritual (brahmans) perform puja to the deity. The garbha-griha is housed in a structure which has an assembly hall for the worshippers (mandapa) and a towered portion adjoining the mandapa with a circumambulatory path around the garbha-griha. This portion of the temple is called the vimana. In North India, the tower of the vimana is a continuously curving convex structure called shikhara, topped by a capstone in the shape of a ribbed disc resembling the Ayurvedic fruit of immortality, amalaka. In South India, the tower is a tiered pyramid topped by a barrel-vaulted capstone. In the South, this capstone is called the shikhara. The North Indian temple is known in Indian writings as the Nagara temple, while the South Indian temple is called the Dravida temple. The temple in both cases is usually oriented on an E-W axis with the entry from the East and the deity at the West end of the temple. The temple form undergoes some experiments which come to settle in the structure described above by the 6th c. or so. Early Nagara and Dravida temples have little or no carving inside and limited carving on the outside walls. Typically, there is some carving on and around the doors and niches holding images of deities and attendants, one on each of the exposed walls of the mandapa and vimana. The first wall on the outside in the circumambulation path (South wall of the mandapa) often houses a Ganesha and the back wall (west) of the vimana (closest to the deity in the garbha-griha) houses the form of the deity to whom the temple is dedicated.

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Two Himalayan Poems

1. Lakshmanjhula

The boisterous river rushing between rocks
Turns a corner and falls strangely mute
Wide and stately, grown suddenly mature
One moment a maiden, the next the mother of the world,
Unfathomable; a rope bridge sways
Like an ascetic’s necklace of sticks across her breast.

On visibility’s edge an ancient memory burns:
Young and tender the limbs of the ascetic boy
A thought is a glance, a glance an arrow, an arrow fire
Which quenches forever the laughter of the maid,
A moment grown all eye and speechless
The heavenly river now burdened with human knowledge.

2. Kedarnath

Ant-like the car’s crawl up the giant hill
Close pressed by a ring of skyward climbing peaks
Dressed with bristling dense pine-odorous forests
And plunging cataracts like white garlands
The Mandakini snaking lazily far below.
In this desolate grandeur the awareness of a gaze
Brushing my shoulder like a cool benign touch
And surprised I turn to the blue mist ahead.

A hand has parted the veil
And towering in white magnificence
Kedarnath darshan – to behold and be beheld –
A moment frozen, immobile, incandescent,
Interminable. Then imperceptible, almost shy,
The veil drawn back, the memory erased,
The procession of peaks once more leading into the haze.

Taj

One sees her first afar between dream and awaking
Courtyards of white and white arches prepare the gaze
Frames enclosing a real which teases illusion.

Dove of silence, we circle around your stillness
Flinging our seeing’s net to capture and ravish
But you gleam like a moonrise laughing undistanced within us.

Whiteness so sheer it stuns and shames and humbles
Shimmer and flicker and blur of fiery wings
Swifter than sight and moveless, here and elsewhere.

Jewelled simplicity, unadorned loveliness
Mother and sister and beloved, father and presence
Love, death, immortality; Matter and Spirit.

Three Anti poems

I.

One moonlit smoke night
Walking back past the railway bridge –
A patter of rain and hurrying feet on the stairs –
It came out for a stroll.

Harsh Prabhu said cool cat rat
Tyagi Uttam and I laughed
It carried on unheeding to its manhole.

II.

I knew my pyjamas were torn but where exactly
Was what I was wondering as I talked about suicide
To avid housewives.

Then I raised my legs
And felt the cold wind tight against my balls
And saw the women trying to look elsewhere.

Why did the fire die
In your eye?
Here are my hanging balls
Baby brinjals
There the little girl’s blue pathetic body –
So simple the crassness of flesh.

“I have to make tea” said one, getting up.
The other, alarmed said –
“I I have some little work.”

III. What the Sufi Said

The Sufi said there is no water in Hindustan
When you ask for water what they give you is piss.

The Sufi said every Friday I go fishing
I wake up early and walk for 14 miles
All day I sit staring at my fishing rod
Dipped in my mother’s bucket –
But who said fishing is for catching fish?

The Sufi said last night I saw the bull of Assyria
In the dark field behind Churchgate
I was looking for a place to piss:
Its hump was high as a mountain
Its horns were piercing the sky
Its balls were crackling with stars
I said to it “Look out, the police will catch you.”
It turned to a statue in the synagogue.
Only then I pissed on it.

Kashmir

Robert Plant and Jimmy Page in the 70s
Paid their tribute to the visionary territory
Meadows of saffron and poppy ringed with glaciers
Secret glens where the bovine unicorn roamed
And rituals of soma enacted by gandharvas
Crystal phials and magic resins,
the subtle sight opened to a secret sunlight
and winged golden riders of the inaudible song.

Mixed in with the wretched charred remains ,
Heart wrenching mutilation, billowing black smoke,
The pine odorous incense of Shiva and Parvati’s
Nuptials still float. Still is heard
The distant call of utopia’s anklets,
Beckoning the seeker. To the children of peace
Through the ancient fraternal blood sacrifice
The long-forgotten future like leaven swells.

Shah Jehan’s Last Letter

It isn’t for the getting that my days were spent
Life is patterned after mnemonic stories
From east to west the pages reek of war
Journeys of plunder and possession, punishment and victory
And death whose pain is conventional like childbirth.

When there wasn’t war there was ceremonial hunting
Animals and birds massacred like ambushed enemies
Each its own delight – the cowardly rabbit
Whimpering to its death, the delicate doe
Buckling wide-eyed and the lion
Like a prize emperor felled roaring in his pride.

But swift violence is not all a man’s measure.
And worth little to Time were its blood not distanced
By intensities that scratch the earth beyond erasure:
Maddening music, fabled beauty and mystic sadness
Art which stands at the center of the speeding days
A still mirror by which life’s pages are read.

Centuries and millennia will pass, through ruined monuments
Dogs and children will run, lovers will whisper
Shadows will flee from other shadows
And connoisseurs with notebooks in hands
Will divine the inextricable knots of sacred geometry
While madmen mine its echoes for meaning.

Perhaps for only a few a few pages will flutter
Traveling through history on horseback or on vehicles not yet fashioned
Snatched, stolen, sold like slaves or auctioned,
From hand to hand hoarded or savored like secrets
Memories beyond the days and nights of custom
Guarded from Time’s insatiable hunger.

You O son, with all your fevered piety
Will scatter only seeds of darkness behind you
Timur’s legacy and Akbar’s and the halls of Shah Tamasp
Dim now in my eyes; an age passes.
The grammar of beauty and greatness is undone,
Its light stolen by clerics and merchants
Over my dead body through the years
Hyenas dyed in different colors will fight.

Seven Quartets of Becoming: A Transformative Yoga Psychology Based on the Diaries of Sri Aurobindo

Groomed in a modern academic tradition and post-Enlightenment ideals of creative freedom and social critique, Sri Aurobindo (1872-1950) turned his attention to yoga and the limits of consciousness in its ability to relate to and transform nature. In the process, he documented scrupulously his experiments and experiences based on a synergistic existential framework of practice. Debashish Banerji correlates the approach to yoga Sri Aurobindo took in his diaries with his later writings, to derive a description of human subjectivity and its powers. Banerji constellates Sri Aurobindo’s approach with transpersonal psychology and contemporary lineages of phenomenology and ontology, to develop a transformative yoga psychology redefining the boundaries and possibilities of the human and opening up lines of self-practice towards a wholeness of being and becoming.
From the `Foreword’ of Prof. Christopher Key Chapple Doshi Professor of Indic and Comparative Theology Loyola Marymount University, Los Angeles:
Both scholar and Yogi, Aurobindo (1872-1950) carefully documented the unfolding of spiritual consciousness starting shortly after his deep revelatory experiences while in prison in 1908. His observations were recently published in a two volume set, The Record of Yoga. Debashish Banerji has analyzed this work and offers a detailed, clear, systematic and inspirational interpretation of how the Yoga of Sri Aurobindo may be understood and practiced.